My Muse

I was  cleaning out my personal email and happened to come across a document entitled "My Muse". I had no idea what this was. There was no original date on it so I do not know when I actually wrote this. However, I do remember who it was about, so it has to be approximately 20 years old. Wow... It isn't an example of my best work, but I'll still claim it. 

Anyhoo, here it is. Apparently I was a very different person when I wrote this! But that's okay: I'm still a beloved child of the King.

MY MUSE

I'll miss the way you look. Blue gaze endless 

as the sky at noon; 

A quicksilver smile with a hint of mischief. 

Lips pursed in an unconscious moue. 

Expressive hands, artistic fingers itching to make 

me your own private canvas.

I'll miss the way you talk. Excited, words tumbling 

over themselves in their haste 

to be free. 

Fierce: conveying your loyalty and support. Your

accent, reminding me

of a time 

that's long ago and far away...

I'll miss the way you smell. A mixture of 

cigarette smoke and 

couture cologne, 

with a touch of your own personal scent thrown in 

to assuage 

my olfactory senses.

I'll miss the way you feel. A naturally muscled 

torso inviting my hands 

to explore every area;

from pierced nipple to Eye of Rah and below.

I'll miss the way you kiss. Taking me by surprise 

every time, 

each kiss like a 

full frontal assault. Seemingly from nowhere,

to everywhere.

I'll miss the way you taste. Like springtime, 

spearmint and abundant life.

But you're not springtime: you're Autumn. Teasing, 

transient Indian summer 

leading to a bleak, never-ending winter. 

My metaphor for your departure.

Imminent, permanent, unavoidable. I'll miss...you...

A Movie Marathon

 Saturday I got up early enough to catch the movie "The Dark Tower", starring my husband Idris Elba. I figured I'd watch it until it was time to get ready to go to the gym, and then record the rest. I had seen it at the theatre but it certainly warranted watching again!

I began to get ready. I was exiting the bathroom after my shower, but then started to feel... off. I made it to the couch and sat there for a couple of minutes. "Are you okay?" Brie asked. "Not really," I responded. I finally got out  my meter and checked my blood sugar. Yep: I was having a sugar low.

I don't have these very often, but when I do I know it. Then my girls spring into action. Of course I couldn't find anything close by to up my sugar, so thankfully Kitty brought me a caffeine free Pepsi and some taffy. "Here you go mom: this will help!" What a combination! But I dutifully drank some Pepsi and ate a couple of pieces of taffy.  Slowly I began to feel better but knew I wouldn't make it to the gym that day. Or anyplace else for that matter. So I laid on the couch to watch the rest of Dark Tower. I mean to rest!

My blood sugar level did go up some, but shockingly not a lot. I had another swig of Pepsi, Kitty made me something to eat, I checked the channel guide, and decided to watch the movie "Logan" with Hugh Jackman. I had never seen it and figured I'd probably fall asleep during it.

Nope! It was a good movie, full of action and gore, not like the other X-Men movies but I enjoyed it until the sad ending. I'm not going to ruin it for you: watch it yourselves if you want to know what happens. It's worth it!

There is a  new movie that is coming out this year that is the 3rd in a successful installment of movies. I had heard that you needed to see the first two to really enjoy this one. And lo and behold: the other two were coming on back to back! So I got ready to watch...Deadpool 1 and 2.

I had never been able to make it past the first couple of minutes of even the first one. But on this day, being pretty much just a fixture on the couch for the day, I figured I'd power through. And you know what? Yes they were rude and crude and violent and gross and whatnot: but also funny as all get out. Ryan Reynolds is amazing and funny, and the rest of the cast was so good in their roles! In the second one there was a teenage boy who for some reason reminded me of Rebel Wilson, but I digress. 

Anyhoo, I watched both movies and was glad I did! Then thinking about them, I realized that none of the characters in the upcoming movie, were in either Deadpool. And that's when I realized it wasn't Deadpool at all, but Suicide Squad! Seriously! And it would only be the second Suicide Squad movie, not the third. If my sugar had been normal maybe I would have realized sooner. But I didn't. And you know what? I'm not even mad about it. Those were two guilty pleasure movies, and I needed some pleasure that day. I'm pretty sure I won't watch them again and I don't regret seeing them.

But now: do I have it in me to watch Suicide Squad? Should I? Maybe if they show it on a Saturday when I'm home. However, please hold the sugar low!

 

Music While Working From Home

My original laptop is 10 years old. Ben, my tech guy (thankfully the beard is gone!), says it's the last good Dell that was made and he keeps it in tiptop condition. But maybe 3 years ago Brie bought me a new laptop for Christmas so my Dell kind of fell by the wayside.

Now, however, since I am working from home, the Christmas laptop is too small. So the Dell is back in business! When I charged it, turned it on and saw my desktop, I realized that my iTunes were still there. That was the good news. The bad news was it hadn't been updated in a couple of years, I had no clue what my password was and I needed that music!

Long story short: I did the LONG overdue update, reset the password and then logged in. However: I didn't see any of my songs. What happened to them? Lord knew I would be hard-pressed to buy all of those songs over again! And then I saw it: my music icon up in the left-hand corner. Silly me! So with much anticipation, I clicked on the icon -

And a whole unexpected world of song titles was in front of me! Songs I had totally forgotten about! Songs with great memories! And then songs I had never heard of...where had they come from? After listening to a few seconds of some of them, I remembered that at one point Schmoop-Dog had given me an iTunes card and asked me to make him some CDs. Whew! Glad the Rhino Bucket, Ugly Kid Joe, Whitesnake  and Danger Danger songs didn't belong to me!

Of course, according to Brie, there are some songs I shouldn't claim either. For instance, she hates the song "Evacuate the Dance Floor" by Cascada. She says no one would have heard of that song of it wasn't for that Dance Revolution video game and commercial. She's probably right, because I only heard the part from the commercial and I was hooked. Never even heard it on the radio! She also dislikes my dance tunes from my disco days when I was the Queen of the Club, at the age of 16 and 17 (don't tell Marie!). But those were great days! Who doesn't love Put Your Body In It, Keep Your Body Working, and Push Push in the Bush? I mean: besides Brie. Hey: dancing to those long club cuts is the reason why I was able to model my way through college. It kept my figure on point no matter what I ate! And my legs are still holding up! Disco rocks! Oh, and there are also rock songs, R&B and 600 more so I never run out of music.

And for the record: she had me download some questionable songs for her too. Like Duffle Bag Boy, I'm on One, Ice Cream Paint Job, Put it in Your Mouth and Whip and Nae Nae. Needless to say: I have deleted those songs.

So now my iTunes are just great songs that make my work from home day go by faster. I sing along, chair dance and basically forget any blues I may feel from having had to work from home for so long. And good news: I'll be back in the office 5 days a week starting August 2nd! Yay!

But I will miss the chair dancing and singing out loud. Somehow I don't think my co-worker Nancy would appreciate that particular show 😀 Or would she???? 😎